pouring it out...

June 19,2007

Why are you upset?

I don’t know why, but it just doesn’t feel right.
Flashback: last week at Mumbai

Read
Namesake
Freakonomics
Everything you desire
And the Big Bazaar guy’s story

Listened to some awesome music
Spent nice time at home
Had got myself Nokia 5300; pics,videos,radio; it was kool.

And now, I am here; the feeling doesn’t sink in at all. It’s like I’ve been despoiled and left in this mesh of unknown entities. And what’s more ironic?

A week back I used to call this very mesh- mah home!

What kind of differences are we talking about here?

I’ll give you an example. I’ve realized it this morning itself and let me put it this way- the focus it exacts me to get acclimatized at my aerie is minimal in comparison to the amount of thinking I’ve been through in the last 24 hours. (And as I write this, I realize that it is nothing but normal that one gets into the groove more fluently among known people than….)

So, what’s up next?

Well, a lot of things need to be set right. It’s been a year here at my job today, so first of all I got to party!
Next will be, setting up all those different pieces of life together and trying to put them at their right place. Imagine this: Life as a large zillion-inch screen where myriad pieces have been assembled in front of you and when we say that we live life, all we do is move from one piece of the frame to another. And sometimes, when we sit back to ponder, we are basically looking at the different pieces in front of us and trying to figure out things in hindsight. Sounds interesting to me.

Abres los ojos, also gave a new insight into what life can be…all these interesting theories about what life is do make sense, but may be none of them is right!

And what about now?

You know, sometimes you look into the mirror and the man you see there is not you! It’s like an unknown soul trapped inside. The exterior just doesn’t connect to you. And then you adapt. So that’s what um thinking now. Need to make some changes with my place n the way I’ve been living there. Got to plan a few things today.

Thanks for listening me out. Thanks!